Once you see the problem, you can eradicate it.
I created this myself. I chose to allow this to happen. I remember allowing myself to have the first one.
I will destroy this.
Whatever I create, I can destroy.
I thought it was about mending something that had broken. No. This has been habit. The habit has been created, therefore it can be destroyed.
I am the only person in the world with the power to destroy all my panic.
I will be sat on a train in 9 hours. I will ride a few stops. I can do it.
I will be getting further away from my comfort zone which ends somewhere near the back of Ampthill.
Step One. Bedford to Flitwick.
If I feel the panic coming, I will destroy it.
There is no panic. It is fear of fear. Remove the fear + there is no panic. Indefinitely.
I don't know if it will be easy. I don't know if it will be a nightmare.
In essence, there are a few things I already know from panic which I do not need to fear.
1. I will not die.
2. I will not pass out.
My head might want to make me think that something bad is around the corner.
No. I refuse to allow this. If I feel it coming, I will control it. I will shape the fear into the worst panic attack I could possibly imagine.
I am ready for this.
Then we laugh it off.
Transcend the fear. Control, mould + shape it how I wish. Destroy it at its beginnings.
My head cannot hold me prisoner anymore.
I've red + been told so much rubbish about panic, it's been difficult to focus.
In the last few days, I've become optimistic. Yesterday, 'when I am fixed'. This morning; 'soon', this afternoon; 'next week', now: tomorrow.
I will get on a train tomorrow.
Step one. However bad it's been, that's as bad as it ever got.
No, I'm not mad, but this truly is all in the head.